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I see myself in every sad story

sadness had grown large in my heart

my soul can't find enough space to grow

I need to see!

I need my eyes to open!

Why is it difficult?!

كيف أصبح الحب مؤلم كالكراهية!

كيف أصبحت الوحدة دواءاً!

هذه المدينة بئر أحزان، رُميت فيه روحي..أي قافله تمر بها، لتخرجها من خوفها ويعيدها إلي…
إنما اشكو بثي وحزني إلى الله

سأنام في العراء عَلّ الأشباح تسرق وحشتي

where it takes me...

You are still a lonely page since the day I have created you till now!
I wanted to speak and to be heard by only one and you my page stayed lonely because of that wish. so please  forgive me.
How can someone be that close, close enough to feel the heat of his breath but not here!!
I use to be "Eversolonely" but now I'm "Restful Rain"...what did happen in between:

Sometimes life hits us so hard that we think we are going to die out of this unbearable pain!!
but this pain takes us to a higher level...where the way we see things changes. where they start to appear  to us with different forms and different feelings! now I know what they mean by:"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."

More than rain

Most people have a harder time letting

themselves love than finding someone to love them.

Bill Russell

Feels Home

I dreamt of you last night after so so so long and remembered how it felt  "“Someone with whom you can completely be yourself, share unconditional love with and when you look into each other’s eyes you have the experience of being home.”Arielle Ford" 

As we met in heaven we'll meet again on earth...I don't know in what shape, what name you'll be coming...but Promise to love you as I did in heaven and as I did every single day of my life...

Je Suis Malade

©2010-2011 *3mmI

Artist: Dalida 
Song: Je Suis Malade

I don’t dream anymore, i don’t smoke anymore
I don’t have a history anymore
I am dirty without you
I am ugly without you
I am like an orphan in a dormitory

I don’t feel like living in my life
My life stops when you leave
I don’t have a life anymore and even my bed
Turns into a platform (of a station)
When you go away

I am sick
Completely sick
Like when my mother went out in the evening
And that she left me alone with my despair

I am ill, fully sick
You come, one never knows when
You leave again, one never knows where
And it will be soon two years
Since you didn’t give a damn.

Like to a rock
Like to a sin
I am locked on to you
I am tired, I am exhausted
To pretend being happy when they are here

I drink every night
But all whisky
For me, they have the same taste
And all the boats carry your flag
I don’t know anymore where to go, you are everywhere

I am sick
Completely sick
I pour my blood in your body
And i am like a dead bird when you sleep

I am sick
Perfectly sick
You have deprived me of all my songs
You have drained me of all my words
And I have the heart completely sick
Though i had talent before having your skin

This love is killing me
If this goes on, i’ll die alone with me
Near my radio, like an idiot kid
Listening to my own voice singing

I am sick
Completely sick
Like when my mother went out in the evening
And that she left me alone with my despair

I am sick
This it is, i am sick
You have deprived me of all my songs
You have drained me of all my words
And I have the heart completely sick
Surrounded by barricades
Listen! I am sick

Dear

May my prayer be a shield for you from all harm
and a bridge for you to take you where you desire
may it blooms happiness inside your heart
and bring to you everything you wished for

love

Breakaway

I should stop asking you “where are you?”

Years of asking had locked me in a question away from all the answers!

Now I end up asking myself “Where am I?”

free yourself...Breathe with me...free me

@Restful Rain 2011

Breathe with me

"You
From my dream
Made from water
Melting at the edges
I
Gave you the secret
I was calling you
As long as I could
Don’t be silent
The blood will not cool down
My love is in it

Breathe
With me
Casting shadows
We are dancing under water
Breathe
With me
Maybe someday
We will meet again


There is nothing
Anymore
Except
Your breath
We 

Will swim away
Where always is flowing
Water in the veins

Don’t be silent
The blood will not cool down
My love is in it

Breathe
With me
Casting shadows
We are dancing under water
Breathe
With me
Maybe someday
We will meet again


Breathe... "

Copy right Serebro - Dishi (Breathe)

Hello Rain

do you know how much I love your smile

I’m not giving you up

I’m full and complete

I’m blessed by your love

I know you can hear me

The rain is your voice that gives me life

Hello…Talk to me…let it rain

© Restful Rain

before they do...

ما عاد بالإمكان الإحتمال

ويفتح الباب

في كل ليلة

صوت لا يتوقف

نداءا يتلوه النداء

و روحي في سكون الخوف

تنظر في وجل

للموت القادم في عطش

وأنا في زاويتي

في صراع! هل ترانى قبل الرحيل نلتقي؟ نرتوي؟

لا أريد الإجابة

ما عاد بالإمكان الإحتمال

....

©Restful Rain

As Allah promised me

I lived happy carrying in my heart the most beautiful dream
Dreamt of it day after day
Waiting for it to come true
And before it dose!
I've been told the time came for me to leave!
Still I'm happy
I'll leave with it in my heart
I won't break my promise for you
And in heaven again I'll wait for it to come true
And it will
As Allah promised me
It will

In your silence I can hear your heart beat
Bridging me to your soul


©Restful Rain

صدره بحر

Pier Storm by Geoff Love

عودة محارب
صدره بحر يسكن شاطئي
سأكتب له الرسائل
لأقرأها على صدره
فتسبح كلماتي لعمق هذا البحر
فتهز قاعه ...ليتنهد موجه فيحضنني

©Restful Rain

Another Birthday without you

A prayer
for you...for me
for rain...for earth
a prayer made of rain drops to wash our hearts and heal our souls

Happy Birthday to me and Happy New Year to you

© Restful Rain

rain's heart

Picture copyright http://vi.sualize.us/view/16e1c687f041e29bb63fe3fdc0588a6f/

I don't know why this

pain...

tears...

Why don't rain comes back and stay with me!!

why rain leaves, and why I can't leave with the rain!!

Kim Yoo Kyung – Byulbitnoonmool (Starlight Tears) [English Version]
When You Are Ready To Love*From “Boys Over Flowers” drama OST
Lyrics by: Lisa Tang

From the first time we met, I knew we would be friends
You had a different air than others that I knew
I am also alone in this world I’ve come to know
Finally, I’ve met someone like you
I know that I might’ve been a bit cold at times
But that was just the way I dealt with all my fears
You took the first step to show I don’t have to be alone
And now I, I know I love you

I will be waiting for you
Don’t care how long it may take
I will always be right here
When you need to laugh or cry
You let me know
When you are ready to love
And I will rush to your side
To sweep you into my arms

Maybe one day you’ll know the love that I’ve kept inside
I know love comes with pain; it’s so hard to erase
All that I’m asking is for you to let me stay here
Don’t be scared; you can lean on me

I know I’ve found the one when I look into your eyes
I will wait by your side till you can give me your heart

Heartache...

Heartache...

The dream I saw

The dream I saw...

the words I want to say...

“A coward is incapable of exhibiting love; it is the prerogative of the brave.”
Mahatma Gandhi

© Gregory Colbert

My heart has been taking
his pictures all my life

But all I can do is writing messages
that end up waiting in a box

My heart lost his voice; calling him
in an endless dream

in this world full of strangers, looking &
hoping he might come near

Only Allah knows who he is, and only Him
can cure my heart

©Restful Rain

The Gate was opened

Photo by Bator Horvath

on June 27, 2009

for my surprise I said the password

and the gate was opened

Light, Joy and Happiness came in from his side:)

A smile that took me off the ground