I miss the rain

I write...
I search for who I'm...
There are no doors!
I knock the first wall!
I was standing there, bored of waiting
Suddenly!
I feel light
Half a sleep
Slowly withdrawn to emptiness...
I awake crying, tears rolling on my face
For how long I was there?!
What happened to me?!
Those moments were not recorded!!
Were they from my paste, or future, or not from all that?!
What could have happened in a moment of emptiness?!
Was it that the chatter in my head went quite,
and it was the time for my real me to speak?!?!
What did it say that made me cry in fear?!
Or was I crying because I failed to hear it?!

I'll knock the door or the wall again...
I'll go to sleep with half mind, half heart awake

Would you speak load this time, please…..

words by Restfu Rain

photo by Unknown