I'm exhausted
Tired...tired of being alive
Death had taken them away
I miss their happy faces...their gentle smiles
the care and love they spread around
I miss being the girl I was

I wish I pass through the door to where they are
even if I'll pay my life for it
Allah I love you and I accept my destiny
Please give me strength to carry on
let their love and smile reflect on my face
So I can make someone else smile the way they made me smile
I wish to Pay it Forward
Allah help me to do so

your smell

I set here next to her...

she is in her deep sleep/deep pain...

I can't really tell!!!

5 years of silent/ loud pain...

her sickness was the master who tought me patience...

broke my legs and graw me wings...

I hover around her restless, and when I fall, her soft gentel smell takes me in

and I sleep...

Mother...you gave me everything...next to you I still can dream